CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR

Last week I wrote about the peacefulness of June after the busyness of May. I was looking forward to not having to worry about having too much to do. In my head I was planning to float through the month while I enjoyed quiet times with books and a feather duster (and maybe an apron) as I caught up with little chores and treated myself to little pleasures.

As we know, life has a way of sending our plans awry. I can say I totally dilly-dallied the week away. I managed to get sick and spent the days taking antibiotics and very long naps. Now seven days have gone by and the only productive thing I've done all week is unload the dishwasher.

I am finally feeling better but still have one more doctor appointment. I'm sure by that time everything will be fine. It seems like I always hear "Well, it is probably this, but of course the specialist needs to check it out, just to make sure that it isn't....THAT!  And then, of course, no specialist has an appointment available for at least two months. Thanks to a very determined nurse, who contacted four different offices, she finally found one with a cancellation. I'm sure I will be feeling fine and normal by the time I see the doctor and try to convince him that I really was in a "no good, terrible, very bad" way.  

It's true that we never know how healthy we feel until we don't. It's something I don't think about enough. But when I do, I realize I have had just one thing after another lately. So now I have vowed to myself to be more conscious about taking better care of myself.  I almost said "Be Better." And then I laughed at myself.  There's a chance that I may be a little delirious. It's been a strange week.

My problem with vows is that I never want to start them today. I think that secret is to begin Today. I am always willing to begin tomorrow. Preferably after I have bought a nice notebook and made a detailed list of what to do and why.

I've been reading a lot about writing and trying to work out how much is the right amount to share. Just in general. I don't have any big secret announcements. Some of my favorite bloggers are willing to write about every private, tiny thing. In great detail. I admire how they can do this, but I don't think it is right for me. I realize that when I start to tell too much that I am overloaded, and it's time to retreat and reboot. Maybe I needed this week after all. But I'm glad it's just about over.  Most of June is still ahead. Take care and be healthy everyone.